Stayed up 'til 02:00 listening to this. I'd initially planned to have a few minutes going on in the background while I prepared for bed, and then would listen to the rest in the morning...
But I was hooked.
Ben, that part where you laid your doubts out with supporting data that quashed WT's eschatological line-up, and the elder you looked up to responded with "so what?"...My jaw dropped too.
These people who claim to love truth, who claim to be in it - they're terrified of it. Similarly to your situation, it was the external response to my research that propelled me into awakening. The quaint assumption that we were surrounded by truth-seekers took an ominous turn when we realized that the people we love are actively participating in a LIE.